Saturday, September 19, 2009

事实

趁现在还没有泥足深陷,有些东西有的避免就避免。

明知前面是悬崖,不想再踏前一步。

我不想再让自己有一次机会来骗自己。

骗自己有多么的辛苦。

既然已经变成事实了,认为还有机会吗?

事实有时令我觉得很残酷,但是最终都是要面对。

面对是最好的方法,大不了痛苦一阵子而已。

又不是没尝试过这种苦的味道。

希望这些可以到此为止,想多会令我有太多幻想。

我可能会保存,但是不会越界,默默守护着你。

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Pain

Haiz.....Why i everytime always drop in this feelings.
Make me suffer everytime.....
Make me no mood....
Make me heart pain....
Make me cant concentrate do everythings...
Make me cant control myself...

Izit my destiny always bad in future?
Izit what I have always been this way forever?

Sometimes, i think if i treat people good, izit good idea?
I think impossible...they wont appreciate it.
Just think you is useless only. DONT WANT you care...DONT WANT you worry.....
Am i useless? Ya, i think.
Haiz....

That is enough pain for me now....I wont do this anymore.
Now i need to do is dont care about this.
Just concentrate my studies and others make my life is interesting.

Well...my future? i dont know and also dont want know about it...
Now i have set my target in my life. (Dont ask me...I wont answer it...I will make it secret)
I dont want this thing affect my mood again.
I have to aside these all feelings.
Dont want think anymore.
Dont want this feelings stop me in future.
I hope this thing wont happen again.



I can be your best listener.
I will let you what you want to do anything to me when you sad.
I will accompany you when you no mood.
I will appear in front of you when you need me.
I will dry all your tears when you cry.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

No mood

I dont know what happen to me....keep no mood study and anything also cant do best as well.
Since my final exam is coming soon, still have one more month.
First class until now, i dont know my subject what to study now.
At class, keep dont have study mood..Always want to play...keep fall asleep.
I dont know my mind thinking what thing.
My mind always float out many question, it very stupid question( Dont ask me, i also dont know).
What should i do can wake up my mind have back my study mood ?


My friends keep asking me: did you lay down the sad things?
I answer: Yes, on that day start i already lay down all sad things.

But my pain still not fully recover back. Dont know what should i do can cure my pain.

Izit pain bring us many trouble?
Did me walk in road to destruction?

Somebody can AWAKE me please... =(

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

无聊!!!!!

感情是不是有那么容易抓摸呢?
没经过风浪的叫做真实的感情吗?
没付出一切算不算是感情?
没安全感的人算是好事吗?
没有感觉了的人还会永久在一起吗?
感情是不是你情我愿的?
感情是不是一种好像玩具或是工具?
在一起是不是一件很容易的事?

以上我说的我也不知道,连我自己也找不到确定的答案。
如果答案是的话,我觉得永远不会找到真爱。
如果答案不是的话,我觉得一定会面对很多的困难,还有不是每个人这么容易可以做得到。
(这是我猜测的)
嗨...我也不知道我自己需要什么,想什么,做什么才能满足我的心情。
每一天都过着普通日子。我在想如果可以尝试到这种滋味多么好呢。
但是是你的就是你的,不是我的就不是我的。
何必要去那么痛苦呢。每次都是我一厢情愿搞到自己那么失败。
失败的滋味尝的多了,很想有成功的滋味,但是我知道机会是很微。
每一样东西是不是冥冥有安排着?我也不知道。
我想顺其自然的思想是不是让我好过点?我也不知道。
每一次想回我以前做过那些白痴令自己感受回痛苦的心情。
痛苦的心情一点都不好受,令我没心做任何东西。
我想是不是我性格有问题呢。。想一想,说得也是。
我很想去改掉这些不可理喻的性格。很难的事。。T^^T
是不是每一件我想去做的事都很难才成事?
是不是我做每一样东西一定要有阻碍的?
是不是每一点我要做的事都是错的开始?
答案:不知道,不想知,不想懂。超烦。。。
嗨。。。嗨。。。嗨。。。

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Friendship's Problem

Why you want do like that? Keep change emotions and black face to me(I know you sure say dont wan msn me. Call you better then can hear what you thinking or saying now)
Sometimes I busy do somethings, you also want scold and blame me.
Sometimes go out recognize new friends , then you said me not enough friend dont have take you go there.
Your character keep until no changed, i very hard to get long/chat with you.
I have already keep nothing happen to get long with you. Sometimes i will endure you.
Ok fine...Sometimes i misunderstand what you saying is my fault again.
Forget/long time no sms u is my fault again.
No reply you say me lan ci(rude word) again.
Haiz...U tell me how i get long with you.
If i have do anything wrong make you dislike, please tell me the problem.
If I not understand what you saying, please told me more clearly.
If i having busy do something, please dont fault me again more.

I hope our friendship still can continue. I dont know what yours next move thinking, hope u will understand me.

Erm...sometimes seen like good people but your character very...... i dont know how to say it. I hope you will change it to better. (That is my comment)


Sorry, this post is my last week feeling's. ~Late post~:(

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Oldern Memories

Actually, i have thought of asking her to go for a fish leung concert. Before i have prepared if she answer YES or NO.
If she answer YES, i will be very happy. That time will be a great chance for me to get along n lot more closer wif her.
I've planned to do something to make her happy, put a smile on her face every seconds. Making this day a memorable day for her.
After finish, i will fetch her go eat dinner and send her a bouquet of flowers.
When i chat with her, i will try dont let her boring and give her have happy memories.
Afterwards, i decide fetch her go park take a walk. That time i think want express to her "XXXXXXXXXXXX"(i dont know is time to said it but i still want to try). Then, suddenly dont know what happening make me wake up.
When i open eyes, i am lying at bed. Just now that is my fake dream only, not truely.

Haiz.....Last time that is my hope was i wrote it just now but something happened. Impossible Now. Something have changed our relation :(

No more hope, No more chat
No more help, No more care
Need me help, I will ignore.
Want chat with me, No way.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I DONT CARE

Now i dont care whatever you thinking now, you want to change our relation like enemy?
Ok Fine, i will follow it what you want now, i dont mind it. You want change like so lan diu and so lan ci (rude word) is your problem because that is not my business.
Izit you learn by somebody's temper and character?
So, i want let you know now, without you i still can do it best in my live.
Such have this kind of rare friend, i would rather not know you at the beginning.
This time, I will let you regret was treat me like this relation. But i will Forget it in my life.
I will let you try back that taste what you treat me last time when you need me.
Try to ask my help, call my name... Even though if other people heard you, i wont give a damn about u calling me. But i guess i will answer you sometimes, as a gentleman.. But still i wont help you even though i answer you. And don't even think about begging me.
I will let you know not vote me is your loss. I will live more happier than before.


I swear i will ignore her again if she ever ask for me help. Because i have already 放手(爱不疚)
Friendship is over. Nobody can change it. If want change it back, that is impossbile thing. If got chance, i will refuse it. I won't accept any more request as you want.


My friend will ask me: Are you sure? You can do it like this?
I will answer: Yes, I do. But i know you all won't believe what i say now. I will prove it the action.





Lastly, I would like to sincerely thank you very much to you. Because you non-stop lead me up and teach me what to do on next move. I will remember this FRIEND in my heart forever.
Opps....forget introduce, that is my brother's beautiful future wife "Elaine".
Thank you a lot.